Talking about home testing for HIV

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Calm At Last



Thankyou, Thankyou, Thankyou.

I dont even know where to start, I think at the end is best. My test results are negative…..
I left my partner after lots if mental abuse, it was hard but as a single mum. I had to do what was best for both me and my son. I then had sex with a guy I spoke to but knew nothing about but we had sex anyway, it was protected but after that time. I was so ill but I never even though about HIV. I got well and started to live my life. Eight months later I fell and split open my toe and my son helped clean it up and two weeks later he was sick and thats when all the doubts set in.
I was constantly on the net, by this stage I was getting shooting pains in my glands, I had a sore throat and convinced myself I had HIV and also past it in to my son. I was a mess to say the least, the more and more I read the worse I got, I even called THT Direct and spoke to them and was basically told not to do the test as they said what I was presenting as symptoms where NOT the actual symptoms. I did the test for peace of mind. Ive had my sore throat for a couple of months now. The shooting pains are NOT in check with the swollen glands you get with HIV…. but I was still convinced. I was also told to stay of the Internet as you will always find what you’re looking for. You put painful glands, sore throat and HIV…. you will find everything on that subject so please try not to look up your symptoms because I’ve lived with this HIV fear for a while now and there really was no need to make myself this pooly through anxiety and worry…. and thats what its all come down too. The fear HIV has cause the anxiety to get so bad and that cause anxiety symptoms.
Through this whole process I’ve have learnt so much, but the one thing I have learnt is and the most important bit of information I can pass on is, its a virus. The same as every other virus. Just one that our body cant fight after a while. The medication available is mind blowing and will enable anyone with a positive result to live a normal fun life. I doesn’t have to be in isolation, you can still fall in love and have sex and do everything you would like and I’m sure people are reading this and thinking, yeah yeah yeah. Your results are negative but can I just add…… The Information will and would have given me a normal life, I’m sure there would have been a few bumps in the road but “HIV IS NOT DEATH SENTENCE”

What ever your results maybe, you have options…

I hope this is of help to just one person at least because if it helps calm you down until you test, Then I feel like I may of made a difference.

1 Responses

 Thinking on 22nd November 2016

I've had a lot of symptoms, night sweats, aches and shooting pains. Fluttering all over body and swollen glands. I've ordered they test and will get it tomorrow I'm absolutely freaking out about doing it and don't know what I'd do if it was positive. This worry has consumed my life for the past 11 weeks, not sleeping well and just feeling s**t. As I write this I have twitches in my legs. I had a GUM test in the uk at 32 days and it was negative.

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