Now I’ve been avoiding this for the last 2 years because of anxiety, it had crippled me into thinking I have this disease when I barely have any symptoms of it.. but my anxiety created those and googling them all of a sudden I get HIV as a result. I was dating someone for 4 years, he had a secret life and the rest goes hand in hand. I refused to get checked and did it all at home except for HIV. I finally tested today after a week of not eating, constantly thinking I had it when in fact I don’t and I’m negative. The relief of it all I could cry with happiness.

I’ve now learned don’t be afraid to ask a new partner for their status, always wear a condom and if they refuse then you walk away.

This is something I will never ever go through again and if I’m honest the anxiety isn’t worth the pleasure.