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May 17
Anxiety will not leave me
So abput 7years ago I had relations with a man, a man whom I later found out was married. Needless to say I was mortified. His wife contacted me and suggested I get tested as he had HIV. I was beside myself and didnt know what to do so I didnt tell a soul and burried this awful worry. I kept this inside for those 7 years. I felt ashamed, worried, scared, confused, sick… the list goes on. I found bio sure about 2 years ago and tested. The results came back negative and although I felt instant relief I still could not be but at ease. Anxiety came to the front and I purchased another one in the month of June, again it came back negative.
Me and my partner of 6 years are trying for a baby and as routine procedure he is going to be tested for all std’s. The Anxiety is so bad right now. I saw the blood test form and just seeing HIV on there is scaring me silly.
Do I need to worry following 2 negative tests? I am forever having blood tests for various health issues. I would have thought yhat somethong would show. But the fact I have done two Biosure tests. Please someone out there give me reasurance .