Talking about home testing for HIV

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Don't diagnose yourself using Google



Living in fear for years

I have been living in fear for years thinking that I could have been infected with HIV. I was married for 14 years but my wife had cheated, and so had I throughout our relationship. Although my ex wife of 14 years had regular tests I never did out of fear of maybe knowing someone in the clinic, and the fear of being positive. I used her as a kind of Guinea pig which is stupid and wreckless. All sorts ran through my mind, and Google’s HIV symptoms made it 1000 times worse. Such as, do I feel tired, have you ever had a rash, do you sometimes sweat at night. I am a yes to all of these and it made my fear so much worse. I decided after years of feeling this way enough was enough, and I came across this test and within one day it had arrived. I did the test straight away, and after a very fearful 15 minutes that included a lot of preying, crying, and shaking, the test came back negative. I was so relieved and truly felt instantly like a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders. My advise to anyone out there would be to man up and take the test, without suffering the fear and all the worry like I did. It is always better to know and I wish I knew earlier than what I did.

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Panic queen
 Used on 02nd March 2016

I recently started dating someone who wanted to be sure of my status. The last time I did the test was in 2009.A million thoughts ran through my head with my over two decades of my life flashing right in front of me. I ordered the self test kit on Amazon which arrived the next day. Took the test and it was negative. Now am so relived and don't have to Google HIV symptoms all day and panic. Now I feel like I have been given a second chance to live right.

 Used on 10th February 2016

I have had the worst anxiety for the past 2 weeks after someone put the idea in my head that HIV is everywhere. Google is the wrong thing to do! I had a test 4 years ago when i was pregnant so I was re living my sexual history to remember if I had put myself at risk! Always been very careful with condoms but there was one drunken one night stand that I couldn't get out of my head. This past 2 weeks has been a nightmare that I never want to go through again and thanks to the biosure test I am relieved that I don't have hiv!

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