I'm worried and very suicidal
Had protected sex with 2 girls and get a negative after 5 days after having sex. The first girl i feel normal and I’ve mistakenly decided to have sex with another girl a fortnight after I have sex with the first girl. Which I’m began to fell ill. The day after I have sex with the second girl. I decided to go to the doctors to get a HIV test which he tell me to come back 4 days and after 4 days I came back and it say negative. But inside I’m still worry and suffering from anxiety and even thought of committing suicide. Now it been a months from this happening and I’m developing some symptoms. And also I still have herpes on my lip, fatigue, sore throat, headache, swollen nodes on the armpit and mouth, fever, persistent diarrhoea, ulcers and white tongue, strep throat, oral thrush, red blotches, and skin rash. Also if I got tested on the forth generation test and I’m negative. That mean I’m negative and won’t get HIV in the future.